Seriously. I'm leaning that way. And for the record, I'm not speaking in the grandiose idyllic dreaming of the future sense. I'm talking in your jammies, lay your head on the pillow, fall asleep, wake up in the morning and recall dreams from the night before. Pretty simple and nothing particularly special, right?
Well for me, this hasn't happened with regularity in close to 15 years. I would say that over these years I awaken daily with a blank memory of the last evening...completely blank...with a sense that something was dreamed but completely unable to remember one tiny detail. From time to time I would remember a dream, probably on average about 1-2 maybe 3 per month. And usually the way it would work is that I would remember a bit of the dream in the morning and go about the day and by evening, couldn't tell you what I dreamed last night....that is when I would actually dream.
I began to notice that my nightly dreaming was below average sometime in high school. But even in high school, I would dream more often than I have over recent years. I even remember relating my increased dreaming to being blissfully head over heels in love with my high school sweetheart, whom I was convinced was my soulmate, otherwise why would my nightly dreaming have increased, right? The dreaming was sparse in college and became sparser still after college when I entered the real world(and those "dreams of the future" became harder to attain).
I began to accept it as a way of life, Tanya just doesn't dream at night very often. Certainly, if I did I would remember it. Most of the people I know who recall dreams, even multiple ones, tend to be fitful sleepers or even suffer from sleep issues. And I slept well, always had. I just attributed it to that; I am a hard sleeper and therefore, I don't have many dreams. So for me I figured it was just the ying to my yang...I sleep well, therefore I do not dream.
This habit continued even into my recent marriage which is an enormous contrast to my husband. (so there goes my "if I am with my soulmate I will dream" theory) He wakes up everyday with some bizzare dream sequence to discuss. Case in point; A couple of weeks ago a friend and fellow competitor for a job he had interviewed for was eaten by a T-rex from the car. He will wake up and some days look at me funny, because some fella in his dream had swept me off my feet and whisked me away (this usually requires me to bake something with chocolate in order to assure him that it was indeed just a dream and no-one is after his woman, believe me). Most mornings after he retells his dream(s), I just look at him puzzled and tell him "You sure have an active imagination." I rarely can share anything with him...because there's nothing to share, dream folder is empty.
Imagine my curiosity then as to why I am suddenly flooded with dreams. I have been having dreams nearly everynight for the last 2-3 weeks. I am still not remembering them for long...except the one I had a couple of weeks ago that my ex had kidnapped me and the kids and was threatening to kill us in some old abandoned house...and my husband was searching for us but couldn't find us...I could hear him, but he couldnt find us. I however, hold my husband responsible for this one, because he made me watch the Blair Witch Project start to finish(which I had never done before). He of course fell asleep with the remote hidden somewhere and I was too scared to move to turn it off. But still, I have not been able to shake that dream.
I dreamed again last night...I won't bore you with the details. But today I am seriously wondering why I am having all these dreams. And honestly, I'm not sure if I like it. I had become accustomed to my waking up with a mostly rested, blank slate each day. Now I am waking up and my mind is already cluttered trying to make sense of nonsensical happenings that galloped through while I slept. And so I find myself distracted lately, wondering what the dreams mean...do they mean anything? I am taking to interpretting them and probably getting it completely wrong. And I find myself affected by these dreams. Waking up with feelings and moods already formed but having to backtrack to the dreams to try to figure out why I am waking up confused or grumpy or scared, for no apparent reason. So I'm thinking this whole dreaming thing...its a little overrated. I'm kinda missing my blissful, however dull sleep.